Malaysian Idol, Victor

i'm quite disappointed with the votes about victor. actually i don't know who should be eliminated this round but sadly victor is out!! :( i like his singing...and i feel he sang better tonight for the closing compared to the day before for the contest. i think he should stay...and with his voice, he'll sure sound well singing a chinese song. hope the road is not the end for him! there sure are talent scouters out there and lets hope for the best for victor :)

a sigh of relief...

it's around 10.50pm and i've just finished my last paper of my final exams. i don't wanna comment on it...coz it'll be hard for me to review what i did. overall, i feel that i didn't put enough effort into it...and i've set my priorities wrong. been doing the wrong things at the wrong time. i'll put effort into changing this bad attitude. i have to set my priorities right!

i'm already into my first hour of my holidays! :p but it's so hard to decide what to do! i'm enjoying this moment of freedom. i feel so light, no burden, no pain, no stress (except my neck and back is aching due to constant staring at the table during exam!) maybe i'll do things i wanna do most...my depraved fantasy! lol that sound so...erm...deceiving :p but anway, i'm sure to stay up tonight, to do things i wanna do. i wanna chat online until my eyes go beyond heavy, until my back ache like hell, until my brain go blur! :p

to those who are having their holidays already, enjoy your holidays, but don't let the ecstasy of holidays carry you guys too far...and those who are studying, you guys should be jealous that some of us are having our holidays! :p cheers!

nobody home

the house is quite empty right now. almost everyone is gone for the semester break. but i'm still stuck here until god knows when. hope i'll be able to go home soon. i'm sure i'll be thinking bout a lot of things once everyone is gone and i'm alone. for now, i just wanna concentrate on my final paper, which is the paper i have to resit. oh yea, i've learn to accept the fact that this things are out of control...and thanks for my dear friend who showed me how naive i was. love you loads! smuxxXx!

reply from the dean

Dear Student
The University take examination matters seriously. After the final examination of PEM2036, it was brought to the attention of the management by some students with concrete evidence that a group of students have prior information before the examination. This makes them have an advantage over other students.With today's advanced communication technologies, there is no guarantee that it is confined to one campus. In order to protect the integrity of the examination system in MMU, we have no choice but to have a resit. Appropriate action will be taken against those responsible after thorough investigation. Forthis, I ask for your full understanding.--Thank you and with best regards,Prof. Hean-Teik ChuahMultimedia UniversityTel: +603-83125256Fax: +603-83183029Email: htchuah@mmu.edu.my

With today's advanced communication technologies, there is no guarantee that it is confined to one campus. what is he trying to say bout this?!?! no guarantee that it is confined to one campus? that means the information on whatever stuff is for one campus only, and not for the whole university?!?! what are they trying to do? make one campus better, and the other worse? and they dare say they are confining stuff between campuses! what is this system all about?!?!

mmu is hopeless

there is this problem going on in mmu, about we getting our '2nd chance' to sit for PEM2036, which is a maths paper. the cause of this problem: some lecturer in malacca spilled out some hints (which is quite the whole paper) for the final exam, and the malacca students leaked to cyberjaya students, but not all the students here got the tips. so, you can expect, drama. reports and stuff and it was decided that we have to sit for the exam again. this is an excerpt from the bulletin board:

Important Message to All PEM2036 studentsDear students, Due to unexpected events, I regret to inform that the subject PEM2036 (Engineering Mathemathics III) has to be re-examined. The re-examination shall be conducted at the following time: Date : Saturday, 28th August, 2004. Time : 8.00pm Venue : as stated in the new exam slip ( you may start printing the new exam slip on 25 August 2004) We very much regret should this re-examination is to cause any inconvenience to any of you. Please consult your respective Dean should you have any queries on the matter. Thank you and regards, Head Examination and Records Unit.

i cant just accept this blindly, and i need some facts. i need reasons!

tough time right now

i'm having a tough time these few weeks. trying to figure out what's my top priority...i'm not handling my time well, and it is driving me up the walls! i know i have to sort out my priorities but things are not really easy. i really should learn to handle things around me better...

well, final exam started today, with maths as the first paper. it was far more harder than what i really expected! wish it was easier...wish i am smarter. but anyway, i don't have any paper tomorrow but i have much to worry day after tomorrow...i hope i'll be able to get things done as soon as possible. but with my current rate, i doubt it will be a smooth ride for me. i should organize myself better. organize my life better. set priorities right, and use my time at the right place!

one more thing which is giving me a hard time i again, about people. suddenly i feel like i'm already letting go of people i care most. it's a very depressing feeling...it's like suddenly i'm trying to ignore someone i care most. i don't know what caused this but i don't like this feeling at all. the feeling of letting go someone once so important is really hurting myself, but i can't help it. i don't even know what i the cause! i feel so distant when i talk to them, i feel like i'm trying to avoid them, i feel like i shouldn't talk to them. but they are people i once cared a lot! even the thought of this is driving me crazy!! hate me if you want to, but i just can't help it! i don't know what to do, i don't know what to think, and i don't know why this is happening to me right now!

can't imagine i've broken my own record! i thought there won't be anymore records but 2 seconds to sweep all those mines is amazing! pure luck i'd say :p enjoy breaking the record! 

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i haven't been writing for the past week already...too much stuff to think about, especially final exams. it is just around the corner and i'm very much worried about it. i can only blame myself for this :(

my most treasured picture of the year! :p it's my record breaking 3sec beginner's minesweeping skill! enjoy breaking the record! 

assignment memories

now that the assignment for the calculator is over, it's time for me to recall what actually happened, and what i can remember most.

first of all there was this period of looking for assignment groups. i still remember the feeling of being kicked around, and the lecturer wasn't really helping. gave me names, asked me to find those fellas and end up being put on the waiting list. i didn't get a group until i consulted another lecturer, which really advised me well. i still thank him up till today, and though it may sound like i was argueing with him, it meant well for me. he told me this, "ask your lecturer what will happen to your marks for the assignment? it is his responsibility to put you into a group!" to say it was too late to be so aggresive is not really right because i still had two weeks before we need to submit the project. so off i went, being a lil bit aggresive, and letting the lecturer see that i was really serious bout having an assignment group. and only then he assigned me to a group. so now i have a group for the assignment. what next?

i met the group members. a few was friendly, a few wasn't. well, i have to get along right? so i spent 5 hours straight in the group leader's house doing nothing, trying my best to participate. and one thing i remember very well is being told off JOKINGLY that i'm too silent, i have to try to participate more, and he won't know what to tell the lecturer if i don't contribute. i tried but i really have no idea what they are doing, so i kept silent, and i couldn't do anything in the end. for the next few meetings to come, it was the same. although i did some work, but what i was supposed to do wasn't clear to me. nobody ever distributed any work to me, and after i finished the work, i just sat there waiting for some more work which eventually in the end never came... a few things that i remember well was getting screwed right in the face (which was quite tolerable for me), i had to redo my work because it was not the way he wanted it (which was understandable because it was my job to give the best), and getting a comment like this, "i'm not trying to say you never contribure to the group. i really appreciate what you did (my work) but it seems like you have nothing to do. you can't just sit here. i really don't know what work to distribute to you." i really doubt that there was any work distribution in the group. but his words against mine, i have no say. for the next few days i was trying really hard what i should do. i asked him whether is there anything for me to do, and he said he'll call me if there is, and the call didn't come at all. i was worried bout what i am supposed to do...

and today came not a minute too soon. my worries were proved right this morning. we were to present 'our' work (not mine of course, to use 'our' is a little bit too much for me :p ) and i didn't know what to do. so i sat in the lecture room like an idiot, knowing nothing. when asked what i did, i couldn't answer. all i could say was something like this, "i didn't really do any hardware...i just drew some flow charts." it took me great guts to say this out, because i know it would affect me, my marks, my result, and the way the group will look at me. but i have no choice...i would rather stay silent if there is a chance, but the lecturer directed the question straight at me...no chance to escape.

to say i regret being in this group for the assignment is a little bit too much. because it was my wrong at the first place for not being able to look for a group. and to say the group was being unfriendly is totally untrue too. there were a few who really reach out to people, and there was only him being really hard on me. do i regret what i said in the lecture room just now? i don't think so (for now) because it would make things complicated if i were to tell a lie. i may sound stupid for risking my own marks (which i know is already gone now) but at least i won't live a life full of lies. besides, it is really my mistake at the first place...